Now to provide the context for this story. I had woken up at around 12:50pm (my work shift starts at 1pm) and I felt a little bit "brain stung". When I wake up quickly the chemicals in my brain that are generated during sleep tend to linger, causing a burning sensation and a vague headache. The encounter happened at around 1:25pm or so, so I was already pretty late to work.
The thing is - it's not generally especially crucial for me to be on time, and the guys at work don't usually comment on it when I do show up late, so I find that I start slipping and showing up late (even if only 10-15 minutes) fairly regularly. This makes me feel like shit, because I'm not being reliable, but it seems like the people at work don't feel like kicking my ass about it, which is what usually gets me back into gear, which means I'm stuck slacking. Now, I realize that I've just put the burden of my own flaws on other people and that it's not "fair", but it's just how my personality works. Sometimes I need a kick in the butt. I don't enjoy it, but the shock to the system gets things working again, at least for a little while.
I could go a little deeper into the reasons why it might appear that I am not happy, including work being boring and/or annoying, having to find parking in a city, living in an apartment which is fairly expensive but not of especially high quality, still being overweight, and so on. But I don't feel like this post is the one to go into those things. Instead, I'd like to try to take what the random passerby said to heart.